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If I Stay

Forman, Gayle

(Book - 2010)
Average Rating: 4 stars out of 5.
If I Stay
While in a coma following an automobile accident that killed her parents and younger brother, seventeen-year-old Mia, a gifted cellist, weighs whether to live with her grief or join her family in death.
Publisher: New York : Speak, 2010, c2009
ISBN: 014241543X
Branch Call Number: FIC F
Characteristics: 259 p. ; 21 cm.


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After an accident takes the lives of her family, Mia is stuck between the real world and afterlife and must decide if she will let go and be with her family or stay and be on her own.

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Dec 14, 2014
  • bookworm6868 rated this: 0.5 stars out of 5.

Urg! was really disappointing! The book is SO SLOW! The entire time I was waiting for something to happen! Found it really sappy
and boring.

Nov 26, 2014
  • gracenote123 rated this: 4.5 stars out of 5.

Amazing book. The flashbacks are sometimes confusing. The next book is a good sequel, in my opinion.

Nov 25, 2014
  • crazycoolbff rated this: 5 stars out of 5.

Heartbreakingly Beautiful!!!! Brought tears to my eyes!!! I highly recommend listening to the playlist while reading the book!!! You can find it on Gayle Forman's website.

Oct 23, 2014
  • DebbieP rated this: 3.5 stars out of 5.

This was a good read.
Unfortunately, I have a bad habit of reading ahead when the plot gets boring or confusing, so I was jumping all over the place for this one because of all the flashbacks.
I felt the book ended abruptly, but I suppose that is so I run out and get the sequel to read.

Oct 17, 2014
  • arrina rated this: 2.5 stars out of 5.

I really liked most of this book, but at the end, I kind of felt like, what was the point of this book. There's a second book but I don't think I'll be reading it.

Sep 18, 2014
  • madison382 rated this: 4 stars out of 5.

Really engaging.

'If I stay' is Gayle Forman's top seller. She has also written a squeal to this novel called 'Where She Went'. This book is told from Mia Hall's point of view. Mia is a teenage cellist, in the last year of high school. She waiting to hear back from Julliard (a university that has an amazing music program.) She is the only one in her family that likes classical music, the rest of her family is into rock. Her parents still except Mia for who she is. Mia has a boyfriend that is in a rock band called 'Counting Stars.'

But one day in the winter, school was cancelled due to the weather. Mia and her family; mom, dad and brother Teddy, go on a road trip to visit family and friends. While they are driving, a truck slams into their car, which kills her mom, dad and brother.

While Mia cruises the hospital, and watches her loved ones. Her whole body is unconscious, Mia choses whether she stays or goes with her parents and brother.

This novel got me from start to end, and never got boring. Even though this book is really short, that does not mean it is not good. I recommend this novel for people that into teen fiction/romance. If you enjoyed 'The Fault In Our Stars' and books John Green has written, then this is the novel for you. The movie for 'If I Stay' has recently come out, and still is playing in the theatres.

I found this book really hard to get into. It was too slow-paced for me and I didn't like the constant flashbacks. Someone else might like it though.

Aug 30, 2014
  • yamie202 rated this: 4.5 stars out of 5.

Good book, I like that it had a sequel so you could catch up on what happened to everyone.

Aug 28, 2014
  • KateHillier rated this: 3 stars out of 5.

Mia Hall, a teen aged cellist waiting to hear from Julliard, is involved in a car accident which kills her entire family. The book follows Mia, as she wanders the hospital and watches her loved ones and her comatose body. The next step, to stay or go, is all up to her.

There is a nice helping of melodrama here but it's broken up with Mia's looking back on her life. At her rocker mother, ex-punk-new teacher father, adorable younger brother, and her friends - especially her emo-core band member boyfriend Adam.

What got me the most about this tale was more about the role of music in everyone's life and how even people who don't like each other's music - Mia's mother gave birth to Mia's brother blasting loud punk music while Mia much prefers classical fare, even the doctor's doing surgery on Mia rotate between everyone's musical taste - still connect with each other and work with each other despite their difference in that regard. Music is as much a part of this story as love (familiar and romantic both) is.

There is also a really nice breakdown of all the band and song references in the book at the end of the book for anyone curious to hear for themselves or learn more. I really enjoyed that.

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Nov 25, 2014
  • crazycoolbff rated this: 5 stars out of 5.

crazycoolbff thinks this title is suitable for 13 years and over

Oct 30, 2014
  • orange_hamster_168 rated this: 5 stars out of 5.

orange_hamster_168 thinks this title is suitable for 11 years and over

Aug 21, 2014
  • melros10 rated this: 5 stars out of 5.

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Jul 19, 2014
  • blue_monkey_1726 rated this: 1 stars out of 5.

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Jul 16, 2014
  • NinaP608 rated this: 4 stars out of 5.

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Jul 13, 2014
  • Haley F Miller rated this: 4.5 stars out of 5.

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Jul 09, 2014
  • navy_leopard_16 rated this: 5 stars out of 5.

navy_leopard_16 thinks this title is suitable for between the ages of 12 and 60

Jul 04, 2014
  • blue_dolphin_4376 rated this: 3.5 stars out of 5.

blue_dolphin_4376 thinks this title is suitable for between the ages of 11 and 15

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Aug 20, 2014
  • flammy_icy_girl rated this: 4.5 stars out of 5.

“I just wanted to tell you that I understand if you go. It’s okay if you have to leave us. It’s okay if you want to stop fighting.”

Jun 02, 2014
  • im_that_girl rated this: 5 stars out of 5.

“I'm not choosing, but I'm running out of fight.”

Aug 05, 2013
  • Draw rated this: 4 stars out of 5.

“Love, it never dies. It never goes away, it never fades, so long as you hang on to it. Love can make you immortal”

Aug 05, 2013
  • Draw rated this: 4 stars out of 5.

“I'm not sure this is a world I belong in anymore. I'm not sure that I want to wake up.”

Aug 05, 2013
  • Draw rated this: 4 stars out of 5.

“If you stay, I'll do whatever you want. I'll quit the band, go with you to New York. But if you need me to go away, I'll do that, too. I was talking to Liz and she said maybe coming back to your old life would be too painful, that maybe it'd be easier for you to erase us. And that would suck, but I'd do it. I can lose you like that if I don't lose you today. I'll let you go. If you stay.”

Aug 05, 2013
  • Draw rated this: 4 stars out of 5.

“I realize now that dying is easy. Living is hard.”

Aug 05, 2013
  • Draw rated this: 4 stars out of 5.

“Sometimes you make choices in life and sometimes choices make you.”


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Oct 20, 2013
  • MaryBar74 rated this: 2 stars out of 5.

I read this book because its going to be a movie. To my surprise it was a drag out process for me. I'm not sure if its because I'm an adult reading a teen book but she just took way.... To long to figure out her outcome. Sometimes I just wanted to scream at the book lol.

Sep 27, 2013
  • mvkramer rated this: 1 stars out of 5.

Mia is on a routine drive with her family when the unthinkable happens, and her entire family is killed in an accident. Trapped outside of her physical body, Mia reflects on her life, and tries to choose whether to die or live.

Aug 05, 2013
  • Draw rated this: 4 stars out of 5.

In a single moment, everything changes. Seventeen-year-old Mia has no memory of the accident; she can only recall riding along the snow-wet Oregon road with her family. Then, in a blink, she finds herself watching as her own damaged body is taken from the wreck...

A sophisticated, layered, and heart-achingly beautiful story about the power of family and friends, the choices we all make, and the ultimate choice Mia commands.

Jul 19, 2012
  • Vaib rated this: 5 stars out of 5.

A lighthearted drive to visit family ends in a tragic car crash, killing her parents and Mia's younger brother. She finds her self in an out of body expirience while her physical self is in a coma. Soon, it becomes apparent that it's up to her to choose between life or death. The long hours that follow her decision are spent making the choice of her life... Will she choose to go on in a life in pain without a family, but follow her dreams and be with the best boyfriend in the world? Or will her final decision be to let go and join the rest of her family?

Aug 22, 2010
  • Farah Yassine rated this: 5 stars out of 5.

What if you had everything?
A gorgeous boyfriend who was madly in love with you?
Quirky hip parents who got you?
A musical talent that could take you anywhere?
What if your biggest problem in life was choosing which paths to take ?
Follow your first love-music- to New York City?
Or stay with your boyfriend , friends , and family?
What if one day you went for a drive . . .
And in an instant everything changed?
What if suddenly all the other choices were gone?
Except for one - the one that truly ever mattered ?
What would you do?
Stay . . .
If I Stay . . . .
If Mia Stays . . .


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Jun 16, 2011
  • MadSasha rated this: 5 stars out of 5.

Sexual Content: touching and kissing

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